Sleeping

Last night I was feeling all accomplished and motherly because I woke up, right on cue, with my baby when she wanted to eat at 4:45. She didn't have to cry. I could hear her smacking her little lips in hunger. Apparently I have developed super sonic baby hearing. But the joy stopped there. She didn't want to go back to sleep after she was done eating. So from then until her next feeding three hours later, I got very little sleep at all. And then she didn't want to sleep after THAT feeding either so I put her on my chest and we snoozed together. She is powerless against sleeping on me. She can't help it. I love that.

Being able to hear every little sound she makes is actually something of an issue for me. It keeps me awake at night because every noise she makes, I snap out of my dream state to make sure she doesn't need me (and hoping fervently that she doesn't). According to my mom, this will last a good long while. I am quite positive my husband doesn't have the same problem. She can cry, I'll take her for an hour and feed her, come back and rock her to sleep, and he'll not even have noticed that I left. Lucky.

She started out the day in really good spirits. She was awake and alert and just looking around. I love it when she's like that. But as soon as I pointed out how good of a mood she was in, she did a 180 and started crying and was only consoled by eating (even though she wasn't eating ... she was using me as a binky). This went on for several hours. Poor baby. Poor mommy.